What's up? It seems I've been in some sort of----slumber from art in general the past year. I've just had---quite a lot on my plate at the moment. I just finished with my third year at a community college (I couldn't afford a 4 year right away) and I'm heading into a University this fall. I've decided that I will get a Bachelor's in Psychology, and go from there. I'm really unsure of what I want to do with my life, but, I keep going back to (without trying to seem nerdy) teaching in Japan after I get my bachelors. My friend got into the program I was looking into, and I'm so jealous but excited for her, hopefully I can join!
Ahem, Okay, so I should probably give you guys a bit of an idea of whats been going on in my life:
Pretty much being an adult. School, work, relationships--bah, all too much. 8 months ago I ended a year relstionship with a man I thought I'd spend my life with, but It was for the better. I have been trying to doodle through out all of it, occasionally turning the doodle into real art... but even then I've been more prone to just---throw it away. I've been developing my art style, and it really is largely different from when I had first started drawing. I guess I don't draw anime anymore. It's still influenced, but not really anime. Part of me feels sad, because I know a large chunk of my watchers and friends I had made here watched me because of my anime art and vice versa. I feel as if, I've been neglecting everyone here. And it's hard when I come back and not recognize users and their art because they have changed. I feel like I missed out on a lot that developed here, but at the same time, I've grown too.
When I first started my account on deviantart I was in a rough spot of my childhood and really focused on art. I practiced and practiced, dreaming that one day my art would be great. And what's sad is that--If my 13 year old self could draw the way I do now, I'd be pumping out pictures daily. The irony that I've worked so hard all these years to draw the way I do now, and I don't draw as much. It's truly tragic... Byt, I'm going to try my best and draw more original art and not just shitty redraws that I've been pumping out. Because it's unfare to you guys. Some of you have really stuck through the years and gave me inspiration and support. And I thank you for it. All of it. Even when I was gone.
So, here is to a new summer. Hopefully I can get to drawing more.
By the way: I've been on tumblr mostly.
If you want to reach me, I'll be here